[It may take a little while to reach him there, but Zoe will find Justice sitting on one of the swings in the park that they crafted, feet sliding in the sand, hands gripped around the chains.]
I heard everything that was said at that trial...that what's happening is disgusting, that this is my "unjust" brand of justice...that it doesn't matter how much I hate what's happening, because my hands are stained, too.
[They seem to shrink into themselves more.]
And it's true, I am. It's my fault. All my fault. I thought that when I had a chance to host, I could prove that I can do a good job, that just because I get...I get scared, doesn't mean that I can't do it. But four people died, and I had to tell people to vote for someone innocent, and nothing I did was helpful or good.
I just wish...more people would trust me enough to support me. But I understand...why that's not going to happen. As long as I keep losing followers, I just can't help but think that I'm worthless.
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WEEK 2 (POST TRIAL)
What do you want to talk about?
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[And as such, she's taking a seat on a nearby swing, ridiculous coat and all.]
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[They almost say "okay" but instead, their head droops.]
I feel like a failure.
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Why do you say that?
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[They seem to shrink into themselves more.]
And it's true, I am. It's my fault. All my fault. I thought that when I had a chance to host, I could prove that I can do a good job, that just because I get...I get scared, doesn't mean that I can't do it. But four people died, and I had to tell people to vote for someone innocent, and nothing I did was helpful or good.
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...Did you tell people to go out and kill each other?
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[It sounds like they're going to cry, but they seem to be holding it in.]
If I'd been stronger, if I hadn't been so scared, we never would have had rules like these in the first place. The...eliminations, and all of that.
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[But, more importantly:]
You can cry if you need to.
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[It just feels different.]
I just want to be stronger.
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[They look up, just a little.]
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Yeah. I know some people said some pretty harsh stuff in the trial, but... A lot of people trust you, you know?
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[Okay, Justice has no rebuttal, honestly.]
They're all so much more confident than I am.
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Confidence is something you have to work for. It doesn’t just get easier on it’s own.
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Well, I'm glad I could help.